Influences (or Why I Write the Way I Do)

Natalie Goldberg (free-flowing writing)
Clarissa Pinkola Estes (wild woman writing)
Jane Hutchison (direct-to-the-point writing)
Ernest Hemingway (simple words writing)

Friday, October 10, 2008

Que Sera Sera

If I am not doing what I do, what will I be doing? Here are the top 10 jobs I'd rather have outside of consulting and the academe:
1. Accidental tourist. Will go incognito to 1-5 star hotels and find the best and nastiest to share to readers ala-Michelin guide style.
2. Chambermaid. To clean, tidy up, vacuum, and put those cute perfume and shampoo canisters along the bathroom mirror.
3. Proofreader. Just can't stand wrong spelligns.
4. Shoe designer. Will develop my own line - YAPAK.
5. Voice talent. Hah!
6. Theatre actress. My childhood dream actually. Any declamation/ elocution talent would. If only Dad trusted me enough to attend drama class after 6pm
7. Radio jock. Jazz, rock and social commentaries rolled into one. I'll go by the name of Alexandra.
8. Human rights documenter. Never mind, in tear-drenched pages, I will listen, and write.
9. Ads specialist. Started this with R&R Designs-USA.
10. Convent nun, as in contemplative. This is a job and vocation right? As early as 7 years old, being a nun was top priority. Not sure now though not only because of Yaman. I hope I won't get this desperate.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

The Light

Lately, I have been praying a lot. Like for a lot of opportunities to remain patient amidst breaking deadlines, to remain cool amidst the wail of children and traffic, and to embrace serenity amidst the world, which as it is unfolding now (with the Wall Street collapse) could be anything but serene.


Palawan held me close to the sea. Walking along the 1-km kilometer coastline of Sabang, I got to realizing that Time is indeed the Sea. The Sea is Time. Footprints I make out in the sand could be readily washed away by the waves --- and the same goes for deeds, words, and memories. I take these footprints out first with earnest pride until like the Major Arcana, I reach the impasse and spiritual regrowth of the Hermit and balancing forces of Justice. Time will take away the hurts not literally but it will be less painful, more bearable until such that healing comes with the lightness of spirit, of being. And the element that is God is there. Pride that I am making my own footprints yet it is humility and divinity restored in realizing that we are just representations, manifestations of a force higher than our physical selves. Our bodies are just vessels, alive within us is the divinity of spirit. And that, is God.

So no more counting scars. I keep on veering away from the light only to realize that there is none to go but the Light. That is why I call myself 'Lightworker'. To constantly work towards the Light, inspite of, kahit na.

I cannot escape from my humanity I know. It is just how we are made; the chinks in the stone that make us interesting, unique, even frightful, and very very human. Anger has a purpose too; otherwise, it would have been lost as an emotion. It would not have persisted over Time. Perhaps the challenge is to manage anger. To rule it, subdue it, channel it. Another way of working towards the Light, of embracing our God-ness.

Light Blessings to All of You!