Influences (or Why I Write the Way I Do)

Natalie Goldberg (free-flowing writing)
Clarissa Pinkola Estes (wild woman writing)
Jane Hutchison (direct-to-the-point writing)
Ernest Hemingway (simple words writing)

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Sleep and Colds

why is it only now? i mean this year, just a month ago. finding out that my sneezing fits and perhaps sinusitis sets in and worsens when i lose sleep. lose sleep. after sleeping around 1am this morning, waking up and finding sleep elusive around 345am then forcing to wake by 7am to report to arc, finally, after the 81 transcripts. but like three weeks ago when also in the arc, i had to bombard nicole (the german roommate) with sneezing fits every other 5 minutes. that day, i too lacked sleep for reasons i couldn't remember now. back when i was in schema, my work days would be filled with sneezing and runny noses attributed naively to the stressful working environment, and the cramped business dev office. these are just indirect reasons; the underlying cause instead, the lack of sleep from overwork, and this eagerness to earn my place in a highly competitive, minimally supportive, male-dominated environment. here i lack sleep for the right reasons. and as if sneezing has to remind me, the right reasons still are not reason enough to neglect sleep and neglect school duties in the process. because of incessant sneezing, i had to leave ARC by 3pm, go under the covers by 4pm or about 8 hours lost in productive time. i had to sneeze to find the lesson.

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