Tuesday, November 9, 2010
The Weight of Blogging
blogging is the one constant thing i have been doing since starting Natalie's challenge in 2008. it's been a duty, hard and daunting, as i've realized that committing to a task every day, is one of the most difficult commitments ever. since january 2010, i've missed blogging 11 times already, and this does not count the 'daya' when ShadowMan would blog for me. in this fieldwork, where i've learned from phase 1 the hard lesson of transcribing and keeping one's notes in order, i could hardly blog without reminding myself everyday that i have to do. it's becoming a chore i'd rather not do. but because i commit i'm here. and sometimes, i blog with a sad, angry, tired disposition. forcing myself to, with heavy hands. how i wish i could commit as staunchly to other physical essentials like walking, watching what i eat, eating fruits and veggies, and holding a hobby other than reading. how i wish i could commit as deeply to the values of patience, tolerance, self-control, and trust as i seem to be losing my hold on these. blogging is a duty worth taking after all. i may learn to do more, be more, give more.