Influences (or Why I Write the Way I Do)

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Clarissa Pinkola Estes (wild woman writing)
Jane Hutchison (direct-to-the-point writing)
Ernest Hemingway (simple words writing)

Sunday, December 19, 2010

What's in a Gift?

yaman gives 'gifts' to us, family members; yumi, mom, and myself, by wrapping bric-a-bracs stored in her numerous bags. it could be her comb, pencil case, towel. or stuff found in closets like old wallets, hankies, or old boxes lying around. this afternoon, after seeing me wrap presents, she nonchalantly asked for the last piece of wrapper. after i finished, she went up to me with this shy smile, hands on her back as if hiding something. i had to ask, 'what are you up to little girl?'and she presented me this 'gift' of an old box wrapped in after my style of wrapping presents. what melts my heart is not the gift but the love behind it --- the effort of her little hands, the thoughtfulness of giving, the creativity in which she decorates her gifts, like her innovativeness in using clay, instead of scotch tape, to hold things together; the twinkle in her eyes as she hands over each gift, insisting that it be opened  right there and then. with complaints against a materialist christmas, where do i stand? gift-giving is ok as long as we don't lose the honesty and innocence in giving. the issue is not affordability.  one can afford to buy a thousand gifts if one can afford to. but to give to show off one's affordability is the one contemptible. still, no one can beat the heart when it gives.

Clay is what holds this gift together and a lot of big love.

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