Thursday, January 20, 2011
Limits and Losing
yesterday when i read the email around noon, i suddenly lost the drive to write. in murdoch, a word limit on a phd thesis is imposed at 100,000 words. this is about 10,000 words per chapter or about 20 pages per chapter. in the recent part 1 of chapter 1 submitted to jane and carol, i've used up about 5000 words already, not considering 2 more parts of the chapter still to be written. to be told to write briefly is a discipline in itself. it takes concentration and a masterful combination of words to be precise. but now, i believe that it can also stunt self-expression, especially when the verve to write comes from hearing the voice within and letting that voice out, without concern for limits. to trim down what one wants to say is frustrating and goes against what is taught in free writing as silencing the editor. because to write under the limit means turning on that editor. to be conscious rather than instinctive. to be cautious rather than believing. i just lost the inspiration to write.