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Monday, July 25, 2011

On the Norway Tragedy

the evil that women and men do have a purpose. in my view, they are meant to rouse, to start a questioning of both status quo and change.  i too have my doubts on multi-culturalism. especially if i take it from the eyes of a filipino in the philippines. somehow, i feel uneasy with koreans in the streets. on other nationalities dominating not only beaches and malls, but schools and neighborhoods. why are they here? why are they intruding in spaces supposedly for filipinos? generally, i don't like arabs not only because they smell but also because i identify them as oppressors and rapists of filipinos working in the arab world.

but as a filipino here in australia, i embrace multiculturalism as a concept because i want to be embraced, to be accepted, to be free from harassment, to be left on my own. but still here i am wary of arab-looking men because of the taint in which their reputation as slave drivers and rapist-masters remain.

and here you can see my bias.  as there are spaces of my own that i want to exert and maintain as mine. this space wrapped around my identity as a filipino and the sanctity of it in the boundaries established as i have known them since childhood. an identity that i exert against the biases formed against filipinos (gold-diggers, swindlers, opportunists) and the memory of oppression suffered against other races americans, japanese, arabs, the spanish).

and i am trapped in the paradox of identities under multiculturalism. because despite how much i want to belong, i would always be a second class citizen in this country which is not mine. and at home, i struggle against other races claiming first-class citizenship because they can afford to be, which challenges my rights as so.

the massacre in norway is not mindless, senseless violence. it is not just the politics of hate.  it is a mirror in which we have to look at ourselves and squarely face our racism not a tendency but a natural sense as breathing. we are all racists because self-preservation matters. to inflict violence is to make a point that multiculturalism is a precarious state we have embraced blind to its consequences.

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