Tuesday, July 29, 2014
Two Lonely People
perhaps we're just two lonely people. so like a social experiment, i am trying to trust a man who reputedly could not be trusted. whose past has been too checkered to merit reconsideration. i am doing so because i believe that honesty resides in unveiling what one is, regardless of the risk of non-acceptance. a man could gain my trust this way, compared to those who lie with the veneer of goodness. and i need him too. i need him as i reconcile with a past that had no closure. i need to understand a journey that has been heart-breaking, a journey which began with the boy who first broke my heart at 19. and now twenty odd years hence, this boy is offering friendship, also longing for the need to be trusted, the need to experience kindness. and indeed we are two lonely people. at the point of making sense of loss, lost and trying to recover on every turn, on every turn where ex-lovers meet and provide hope, hope for forgiveness and recompense.