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Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Having Enough

sometimes when one is wanting, it is easy to say --- when i have enough, i'll get this and that...perhaps i'll get an extra one, just for safekeeping...--- every time i pass by the Fossil counter at SM Aura, there is this flesh-colored leather watch that catches my eye. it is riddled with bright stones. a perfect combination of off-white and metal.  but when the time when i had enough, more than enough to buy it, i relented. i don't really need a watch from Fossil. or another watch to that extent. the Seiko silver metal one is still ok. so is the Solvil-Titus vintage from OLX.

actually, this holiday season, i never got to buy anything fancy for me.  it's always something that i need. like this North Face jacket that i need to go to work, to stay safe while climbing mountains next year in Ifugao, for example. if there's anything else, just a pair of shoes on knock-down sale from Celine.

there's really none that i need. i have more than enough. and i felt happy reaching this stage of contentment. of letting go, and being discriminating of wants. a test passed as now i have enough. just like the attitude with men. i nearly fell and let myself be taken away by expectations this year. but no. i realised that i am more discriminating. that i don't settle just to enjoy. that i'm not really a happy-go-lucky person when it comes to love. that i am not impulsive. and i don't fall just because the man in front of me is delectable, says the right words, and gives the ooommmph that women desire.

i have more than enough. and staying simple amid it is the perfect state of contentment.

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