i love Janis Joplin. her intensity and honesty. but i just did something with Spotify today. i removed most of her songs. most of her angst about love, about failed and unrequited romances. these are not mine to herald anymore. i un-claim hanging on to ballads on heartbreak and failure. they have been a part of me. but i choose to leave them by the door, no longer part of my house.
i see myself happy at work, with family, travel, fitness, passions, collections, investments. i choose to be happy. and that includes the love of belonging. of belonging steadfast to that one man whom i will grow old in affection, respect, laughter, shared endeavors, a journey to the twilight of our years. i choose what is best, and good, and lasting.