Influences (or Why I Write the Way I Do)

Natalie Goldberg (free-flowing writing)
Clarissa Pinkola Estes (wild woman writing)
Jane Hutchison (direct-to-the-point writing)
Ernest Hemingway (simple words writing)

Saturday, October 24, 2015

One Saturday

No yoga but will still yoga
Luggage left alone
Wanting some alone time
With games and coffee
I will think of life and work later
Will just stay here and stare
And look weird with these pinhole glasses
Some time for me
A Saturday free

Monday, October 19, 2015


Tired for all the right reasons
Thankful for a whole day's labour.

Friday, October 16, 2015

Truly Well

Health is good.
Yaman is spared from dengue
And I am well.

Saturday, October 10, 2015

Death Wish

death to cheaters, thieves, apologists.

Goodbye, Alimit.

i'm never coming back with these people at the helm.

my only consolation is - I took care of you well enough. I loved you well.

Friday, October 9, 2015

This Lonely Heart

how does one carry on knowing that loneliness will always be a companion? that there is no one to wait for. armed with the knowledge that for whoever may come, the relationship will just lead to separation.

there is one guy i like. JC. but to the heavens, i know i am late. i am too old. my body is too old for him. and i am not his type. 20 years before, i could have easily dragged the likes of him with one single look. but 20 years is gone,

so to the heavens I committed him. i will be happy just being his friend. and no more. in case what i desire happens, i will not let it be. because it will not be right. it will not work. i would gladly free him to be with someone he prefers than be stuck with me.

so how does one cope with this kind of loneliness? that creeping loneliness because while strength is an armor, it could be heavy to carry too, sometimes. and sometimes, how i wish there are strong capable arms welcoming me home, a shoulder, a real good one to rest my head too and cry out the day's frustrations. a strong torso, strong abs where my head can just relax and perhaps take a selfie. i want this. i do want this. but how can i hold on to it, when heaven has declared i won't have it for long.

tell me where to park my loneliness. what refuge is there to take which loneliness can no longer penetrate.

Monday, October 5, 2015

I Marshall On

too many apprehensions.

a lot of things to do.
no space to say 'no'.

a thesis
a CSR philosophy
a department report
an OD business case
8 powerpoints for an international audience

i want to cry.
i want to sleep.
i want to lie down
i want to raise my legs at 45 degrees, forever.

but on the positive side,
i have work
my time is well spent
there is purpose
there is yoga
and at the end of all these,
a good name
a good reputation
something to bank on in the future

so alright
i marshall on
to thinking, writing, creating, and leading

I Marshall On.

Friday, October 2, 2015

A Tear for a Yogi

Thank you JC
It is not a mistake choosing you.