i am on my 7th year of doing the thesis, 5th year on the writing. lately, i have not been following structure. for 12 days, either i am to weak to wake up at 4am, or i slept too late, i had to recover sleep by not raising the alarm. i get to sleep on. and yes, every day, i feel guilty of not writing. because as i said before, every waking hour, whatever time i give to the thesis, i get a breakthrough. on my 7th year, i am already working, and it is not simple work i do. other than the travels, my work is to think, to write, to plan, to design, to implement, and it can get too exhausting. i am getting to my prime even. my knees are getting weak. and my thyroid acts up every time i lost sleep.
so now i adjust. i will try to sleep as early as i can. the latest at 9pm then wake up at 4am and work on the thesis for two hours, on a work day. when there is yoga, i will still wake up at 4am, to either do computer work for 30 minutes or even just read. in case, i have to work late on an important office thing, then i will recover sleep until 5 or 6am and work on the thesis on a minimum of 30 minutes to an hour.
and i will remember this: any amount of time spent on the thesis is a breakthrough. any amount of writing spent for your CSR 2.0 or your designs, your workshops, your plans, is a breakthrough. remember that.