Influences (or Why I Write the Way I Do)

Natalie Goldberg (free-flowing writing)
Clarissa Pinkola Estes (wild woman writing)
Jane Hutchison (direct-to-the-point writing)
Ernest Hemingway (simple words writing)

Saturday, July 30, 2016

An 8-day Rest

it was a rest granted by the Leader. a rest deserved after weeks of traveling. a rest needed to stave off the threat of pneumonia. and so here i am.  i could get confused on what to do. but the list is simple - just bring yaman to school in the morning and fetch her in the afternoon. swim every other day starting tuesday. have lunch and conversations with angeline. visit Daddy and Ina. see a pulmonologist. have a haircut, manicure and pedicure. and just settle with thesis writing, and finally finish that CSR 2.0 book. Thank You for this Lord. Thanks a lot Atty Mike.

Friday, July 29, 2016

Driving Ms. Cutesy

She's a compact car so I call her Cutesy. Just before driving, I feel nervous. But every time, inside her, after doing routine checks of the mirrors, locks, seatbelt and hand brake, I am at ease. And so I drove her today. Around BGC for 3km, according to the mileage meter. Up to 125km. Me, one with the car. Till this Sunday again, my Cutesy.

Thursday, July 28, 2016

Home Please Home

going home to manila after 2 weeks?

why is it an event, this home-coming?
- i need a full rest
- i'm feeling diminishing returns while traveling
- met my quota of travels already

how i long for stability? moving solitude is wearing me down.

old age. burnout. missing Yaman. missing my family. and missing my car.

i want to go home.

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

SUCCEED and Going Down Isabela

the SUCCEED design is finished. and though it is not something, it is a start of something and will be the original from which improvements will take off. Thank You for the inspiration and the concentration amidst the winding tortuous highways of Ambuklao and Kayapa. This is a real miracle.

Tuesday, July 26, 2016

Why They Hate Us?

after millions of CSR money spent, still, the feedback is, help is not yet enough. and we are still the bad guys. there is no all-out support. what is left, after the dust has settled, is still mistrust and this sense of entitlement that we owe them. we owe them much. a sentiment common across all HCs, here up north, across all three facilities. i have 15 years to know the answers.

Monday, July 25, 2016

Today in Binga

because tomorrow, i will be in Binga, the place of no internet. and i don't want another lame excuse for not blogging. because blogging everyday i will again.

what will be new for tomorrow? how will the Kil's team fare in the case study and needs assessment? will i have enough time to work? will i be productive? what other things will happen to me aside from work and blogging and journaling and recording my amazing life?

Sunday, July 24, 2016

One a Half Hour to Mass

woke up at 5am today to prepare for mass. and just 6 minutes past 5, i did wake up. after morning rituals, heated water as the routine for the past 5 days went. and then i had to stop. i am not in manila. i am in santiago. in santiago city, isabela. no need to hurry here. the church is just a tricycle away and the trip won't take 5 minutes. so slipped back to bed and lay around until 545am. just the right time to bath without hurrying. to get dressed without hurrying. at 620am, i have yet to comb but who needs to rush?

arrived at church 635am. the first mass has not yet ended and the one i'm supposed to take started at 7am and ended way past 815am because of combo music mistaken for mass music. i am indeed in santiago city, isabela.

Saturday, July 23, 2016

Thesis Love Crazy

We have very different reasons why we do and still manage to work on the thesis. Me, its personal pride and because, I really love my data and I know that it has value for my hometown. It's this crazy love that keeps me going. Any time, I can quit, But I just do not want to. Crazy really.